Corporate America Never Lets Me Down

Well, I guess I only have myself to blame.
I told folks that my current job while boring,
was tolerable. Why? The people were nice, no
screamers. The workload was demanding, even
overwhelming at times but manageable. The job
didn't follow me home. As a contract employee
I even allowed myself to leave the office at
the office. But oh, how those chickens have
come home to roost in my own little haven.
Its the end of days (2005 days anyway) and
my contract is not exactly up - they like me,
they really, really - you get it. Well, due to
budget, blah, blah blah I can stay if I take a
fairly substantial cut. While they are actively
seeking to "grow the department" seems like they
want to do a Rumsfeld - grow it on the cheap
with fresh faced corp fodder. So, I can stay on
as a Junior staffer if I like.

Now, I always tried to hold myself back or above
this permanent employment thing. I was out of
work for the last 4 years and learned to view
my just-getting-by existence with a mixture of
cockeyed optimism and acceptance while nursing
dreams of "making it without having to play the
game" anymore. I often hated being at this place
and longed for the simple life of picking up
the shit of my betters canine pals. I'm ashamed
of myself for feeling put out by this obvious
corporate ploy. SHKEESH!!!!!!
Today was the office Holiday party. The top cheese
Kernie, held forth. He actually started his speech
with that hoary old phrase "I'm unaccustomed to
public speechifying, blah blah blah so I'll talk
about what I do know - the business" He then
shamefacedly praised the "team" for "being the best".
Its that exact sort of hollow, abstract corporate
bullshit which makes my eyes glaze over and sets
the sound of a strong wind blowing through a hollow
to taking up residence in my head. Kernie is the worst
sort of corporate whore whose whole being vibrates with
"I'm on my way up, whatever your name is, so don't get
in my way". Every manager in this place from the super-
confident players to the closeted homosexual responsibility
avoiders are empty shells of human beings.
Am I bitter? Nah, just bored. But they all do truly
suck ass.